look in the mirror, what do you see, some washed up fuck, wake up and get your life in order

if you breathe in the air, could you feel the cold rushing through your lungs?do you feel the warmth in a hug? you cold heartless your a son of a bitch. can you face your own demons?

are they eating you alive? do they boil out from you inside? how long have you had to hide? maybe this time you should pull through, kick the chair and remove the stool. you fucking bastard.

do you know..

so if tommorrow doesn't work then it will the next day

life is a tragedy, so make it the best one ever

free spirits tend to be easily captured, make sure your bubble is inpenetrable

yah!

i'm starting a solo career

so hopefully everyone likes johnny cash b/c it kind of sounds like that. hit me up.

last nite was the most horrible nite i have had in a long time.

band cheered me up. i'm a loser yeh i know.

i love all of everyone.

this xanga is done.

some things need to be said

I am apologizing to everyone i have lied to about myself and things i've done. I've been a false person b/c until about two months ago i knew Jesus but i was not walking w/ Him. For that i was false. I am only beginning to maybe see who he is and am not even close to understanding that. I am improving in my walk each day by bringing my faults into the light. I beg all of you to help me grow and walk w/ Jesus.

The scene has become what i and others have feared most. I am going to try my best not to be judgemental in this post so here goes. Our "hate-moshing", ends with this post. I don't care who you are, or who you think you are, its done. Don't come to jackson and do it either. I will make sure that you leave in a peaceful manner. Secondly, there are some people at shows that don't really know what most of the bands are there for. This has turned our scene into a lustful, sexually immoral scene. I am very hurt to see this b/c it reminds me of myself and my struggles w/ sexual sin. I feel somewhat responsible for this being brought into our scene. I apologize and am attempting to return our scene to the pure state it once was at. Or was close to at least. So i hope that everyone will invite Jesus back to the center stage of our scene.

Mallory is the love of my life. I've been through some changes and when we broke i think it was God's way of showing me that mallory is the one for me. I apologize for the confusion. if neone cares.

I love all of you dearly, i'm not kidding

go in peace.

-stephen